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Saturday, 28 November 2009

  • Human Punching Bag


    Let me tell you the definition of a human punching bag.

    thats just me. me me me me.

    im the centre for all this drama really, literally.
    Things at home arent perfect, i cannot seem to do anything right or please the whole world at the same time when im doing what im doing. i dont know where to begin.

    My relationships was someone whom i counted on for anything. He will always be there for me, im so used to someone being there when i need them. But lately all i am is a human punching bag. The guy im seeing does the following ten things i swear and what am i suppose to do.

    1. When we fight, he puts me down to the core.
    ( undermines me to a point where i become PATHETIC you know.)

    2. everytime i question his actions he tells me that im tripping or im weird or something that makes me feel stupid.

    3. He does whatever fuck he wants to do even tho we made plans, hang out with his friends etc.

    eg : we planned to go to night safari tonight, we've been planning for a couple of months now, the moment comes hes like " LETS CALLL THIS PERSON AND THAT PERSON.. "

    YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW FUCKING PISSED I AM.

    he shows me how he ISNT the one for me and why the fuck am i still hanging on? what am i thinking. FUCK FUCK FUCK.

    hey fuck it ive given up bye..

Thursday, 05 November 2009

  • Lemon drops

     

     

    LALALALA.

    WORK IS A MOTHERFUCKER I SWEAR I HAVE UPTEEN HUNDREDS OF PATIENTS UNDER ME AND IT IS NOT FUNNY AT ALL, I CANNOT AFFORD TO FUCK UP YA KNOW?

    im dying for some freak in the sheets right bout now, anyways here goes, this is me now, time for PEEKTURES.

     

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    AND THIS WAS LADIES NIGHT @OBAR two weeks ago with banu. love love

     

     

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    and some random pics with PRIYA

     

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    YUP and since everyone prolly wants to see pictures of me and my boy, i finally have time now to put them up.if youre on my facebook you would know more or rather see more, DAMN.

     

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    haha aight i gosta go, dont knock my hustle.

    lateee.

     

     

     

     

     

Monday, 19 October 2009

  • Golden Key

     

    Fuckin hell,

    i turn 21 today and so far my birthday sucks, let me give you a break down of the past 12 hours since it has started.

    - my party got postponed to novemeber due to so many other events coming up.

    - fought with the boy just went it turned midnight

    - fought again while at dinner before midnight ( he made me cry 4 times)

    omg the things we fight about :
    ie: i shouldnt even be in the relationship with him he thinks too damn much bout his damn self its fucking irritating.
        he wants to have a strippers at his party
        he talks about his future girl like how when we break up and what he wants to do with whom.

    - i havent gotten any presents/cake or moolah.

    - no one knows of my existance, im not famous lol

    - im WORKING on my birthday, seriously!

    - my appendics is starting to hurt and im still working and cant go on MC cause they said NO and i have to tolerate the damn pain till work ends.

     

    CAN YOU IMAGINE HOW MY 21ST IS SUCKING SO BAD RIGHT NOW?

    right now i wish i never turned 21. im gonna have a fuckin quiet as hell birthday tonight.

    BYE.

     

     

Wednesday, 07 October 2009

  • Disturbed

     

    HII.

    finally im blogging again, this time im doing it at the office! i know im not supposed to but it helps me destress. Life is so interesting now, it just keeps getting more and more interesting i swear my life should be on THE HILLS. cause its way more dramatic and people would sit there and pay money just to watch how my life unfolds.

    it was prince charming at first, happily ever afters. now its bad boy and unpredictibility. you just never know anymore with me, im not livin the fairytale life as i once chanced upon, im not having my chai tea daily anymore, im not even reading books been 2 months now. im so busy with work, the boyfriend and partying. I havent had anytime to spend with the family to a point where thats tearing apart on its own.

    my life is one tangled up mess right now but somehow i love it cause nothing goes according to plan and it makes me feel like im alive all over again. im not numb.

    peace out.

     

     

     

Wednesday, 23 September 2009

  • I like peace

     

    I dont know who follows this blog anymore, seriously.

    but to those who do.

     

    I JUST FREAKIN GOT MY ASS DUMPED AGAIN. APPARENTLY HE WAS LOSING IT. I THOUGHT I SPICE THINGS UP ALOT HOW CAN SOMEONE JUST LOSE IT? IM SO FUCKEN UPSET, I FEEL I GOT PLAYED . ABUSED.USED. SO NOW IM LEFT ALONE. YET. ... AGAIN!

     

    on lighter note, this is my new hair now. enjoy.

     

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    TO ALL SINGLE GORGEOUS MEN:  HIT ME UP

     

    im serious.

     

     

     

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