LALALALA.

WORK IS A MOTHERFUCKER I SWEAR I HAVE UPTEEN HUNDREDS OF PATIENTS UNDER ME AND IT IS NOT FUNNY AT ALL, I CANNOT AFFORD TO FUCK UP YA KNOW?

im dying for some freak in the sheets right bout now, anyways here goes, this is me now, time for PEEKTURES.

AND THIS WAS LADIES NIGHT @OBAR two weeks ago with banu. love love

and some random pics with PRIYA

YUP and since everyone prolly wants to see pictures of me and my boy, i finally have time now to put them up.if youre on my facebook you would know more or rather see more, DAMN.

haha aight i gosta go, dont knock my hustle.

lateee.

HII.

finally im blogging again, this time im doing it at the office! i know im not supposed to but it helps me destress. Life is so interesting now, it just keeps getting more and more interesting i swear my life should be on THE HILLS. cause its way more dramatic and people would sit there and pay money just to watch how my life unfolds.

it was prince charming at first, happily ever afters. now its bad boy and unpredictibility. you just never know anymore with me, im not livin the fairytale life as i once chanced upon, im not having my chai tea daily anymore, im not even reading books been 2 months now. im so busy with work, the boyfriend and partying. I havent had anytime to spend with the family to a point where thats tearing apart on its own.

my life is one tangled up mess right now but somehow i love it cause nothing goes according to plan and it makes me feel like im alive all over again. im not numb.

peace out.

I finally have some time to blog, ive been so busy working and spending time with the boy i totally forgot that i could even blog, or rather i have a blog.

Work has been a mother fucker. politics suck. you cant trust anyone around you, they rat you out they put you in situations that can be avoided oh yesand they complain on your shoe colours. its ridiculous i hate the people i work with besides my girls, maine and zena. they keep it fun and awesome. rather than that everyone else just pisses me the fuck off. theyre so fucking two faced.

Second of all, eric keeps putting on me that the relationship meltdown was my fault. like fuck you. seriously. yes we both made mistakes that caused it to be what it is. im with someone else right now and im happy, i dont know if this is the guy or if we;re gonna go far but im taking a day at a time. i condoned my relationship with eric like it was written on stone. we made plans. plans failed. with this boy we've been only going out for awhile now and i dont know if anything is written on stone or not but we'll just see. so far, we're happy and we have our off days when we can do without each other. nothing can always compare to what you had before. eric treated me right most of the time, my girls were envious of my relationship. everyone wanted a piece of him but when it came down to the last 6 months i wasnt feeling it anymore, things turned bad.

how can you blame it on me? it was a two way relationship if it ended it ended cause of something that wasnt right between us and you put that on me? i dont know who im going to marry or when im going to do that. all i know is for the now. im living in the present and so far life seems alright it can get better but someday i hope it will. im done planning for the future i think that was the biggest mistake i did with eric. we planned so much that when it all failed it felt like fuck. we didnt know what to do it was like the whole world collapsed. but now im not planning anymore im taking it a day at a time and im happy. relationships are overrated for me right now., im just enjoying the moment whatever comes. im focused on medical school. i have other things on my mind, love can wait. if the guy im going out with right now is the one then yeah somehow it will work out, if eric is the one then it will work out.

i believe that cupid is a bitch that comes back to you when you least expect it and it hits you real hard. so when cupid decides to come my way again i will xanga it.

but for now the boy and i are enjoying a very good time in each others company. putting a label/plan on it fucks it all up i think. i do love him and im happy he is here. for now. what happens tomorrow? i dont know but i know i will be able to brush it off cause im focused im locked in.

yup!